Hey friends, Jenn here, bringing you a little truth from my day.
Today I move all my stuff to Asheville, where I will be living after I get married to the most wonderful man in 12 days! But let me tell you..for a girl who loves to make wherever she is home….ya girl has a lot of stuff! I’ve held on to things I knew would be useful in my future home, I have decorations that I’ve made or have been given to me; there is sentiment or usefulness in everything I’ve packed.
I also do this in my personal life. I keep little memories that I know will get me through the hard times, I push out the memories that are hurtful to relive. I micromanage my heart so that it only feels when I want it to when I want it too. Friend, here me when I say this: this is not the way God intended us to live. Our hearts are so complex, by design! Even to my guys out there, the Lord has crafted your heart to feel as well. Emotions can seem unhelpful at times but trust me when I say, the Lord gave us emotions to be therapeutic.
“For it was you who created my inward parts; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I will praise you because I have been remarkably and wondrously made. Your works are wondrous, and I know this very well. My bones were not hidden from you when I was made in secret, when I was formed in the depths of the earth. Your eyes saw me when I was formless; all my days were written in your book and planned before a single one of them began. God, how precious your thoughts are to me; how vast their sum is!” — Psalms 139:13-17 CSB
The Lord is working in our situations and developing our heart to face the changes the world likes to throw at us. He is so good to us. He loves you so much it’s almost unimaginable. [ Coming from a home that wasn’t always so great, and a dad who wasn’t always the best, it is so hard for me to grasp this fact. ] But friend, God is on your side. He wants to go through the baggage you have walled away. He wants to feel that deep pain you may have. He wants to rejoice with you when your wildest dreams come true!
Jesus wants to be your best friend. Let Him in.
So as I sit here, halfway through my car ride to my new home, I’m thinking of all the things I have not allowed my heart to feel and wrestle through naturally. All of the baggage I may not need to carry anymore. As I approach a whirlwind of change and unknown, I have to hold onto the truths of Jesus Christ. He made me. He knows me intimately. He believes in me. He loves me.
So friend, wherever you are in life today, I hope that you can take a moment to sit down and listen to what God may be asking you to work through in your own heart. Allow God to unpack all the memories and life experiences you’ve shoved under the bed or in the basement closet. It probably won’t be easy, and definitely not fun, but I promise that the reward is so worth it. Your relationship with the Lord will only deepen and become so precious when we give our pain to God and watch him turn it into gold.
Jenn (@jenn.alexx) is an author + creative at thegracescripts.com. Jenn is passionate about women’s ministry. She attends Southeastern Seminary. She and her husband live in North Carolina.