Doormat vs. Doorframe




What a great throwback movie. This movie was part of my Friday-night ritual in kindergarten/first grade. I love the small, random, humorous details throughout the movie. I love Mia’s relatable awkwardness. I love that a girl who feels invisible is eventually treated like royalty.

Ever felt like Mia Thermopolis? I certainly have. As an introverted college student with chronic pain, I often feel like people forget that I exist. I have to seriously consider what social activities I can participate in without draining myself physically. (Also, let’s be real- I have to conserve my social energy just as much as my physical energy. Introvert probs.) So most of the time, I’m not in large groups of people where others can get to know me. For that reason, I feel very overlooked by people my age.

Even in the first month of this summer, I’ve already become frustrated by the lives that people my age portray on social media. People traveling the world, getting engaged, getting married. Meanwhile it’s a big deal for me to get out of bed in the morning. People aren’t seeing what I go through on a daily basis, since most of my life isn’t Insta-worthy.

Last night I had a conversation with God about feeling overlooked. One passage that I usually turn to when feeling insecure is Psalm 139.

   O Lord, you have searched me and known me!
You know when I sit down and when I rise up;
    you discern my thoughts from afar.
You search out my path and my lying down
    and are acquainted with all my ways.
Even before a word is on my tongue,
    behold, O Lord, you know it altogether.
You hem me in, behind and before,
    and lay your hand upon me.
Such knowledge is too wonderful for me;
    it is high; I cannot attain it.

15 My frame was not hidden from you,
    when I was being made in secret,
    intricately woven in the depths of the earth.
16 Your eyes saw my unformed substance;
    in your book were written, every one of them,
    the days that were formed for me,
    when as yet there was none of them.

Verse 16 especially stood out to me. God SAW me before I was anything to be seen.

While this truth was encouraging, I wanted more. So I looked up where the phrase “The Lord sees” is located in the Bible. For some reason I started from the bottom of the list and worked my way up. Many of the verses listed were verses that included the phrase “The Lord” and “sees” separately.

At the top of the list of verses was a verse from Exodus 12. The Passover? Because this passage has come up in recent conversations with believers and non-believers alike, I clicked on the verse.

For the Lord will pass through to strike the Egyptians, and when he sees the blood on the lintel and on the two doorposts, the Lord will pass over the door and will not allow the destroyer to enter your houses to strike you.

Exodus 12:23

Praise be to the Holy Spirit for directing me to this passage!

As the Lord is revealing to Moses how He will carry out His wrath against the Egyptians who denied nine opportunities for repentance, He gives instructions to His people–the Israelites–on avoiding the manifestation of His wrath. After killing a young, spotless male lamb, the Israelites were to spread the blood of the lamb over their doorframes to signify their relationship with God; the Angel of Death was to kill the firstborn of every house without blood on the doorframes. So those who were in relationship with God were saved the loss of their firstborns through the death of the lamb.

In the New Testament, Jesus is referred to as the “Lamb of God” (John 1:29). Jesus is the One whose blood saves those it covers, those in relationship with Him.

I began my time with God last night feeling like a doormat–overlooked and underneath others. Then the Holy Spirit revealed to me that I am a doorpost; the Lord sees me because of what Jesus has done for me. 

I don’t have to do anything to gain the attention of God. Jesus’ blood covering me is what the Father sees. So in His eyes, I am made righteous. I am justified. I am identified by the Son He loves.

What a magnificent thought–that I am not invisible to the Creator of the universe, to a holy and perfect God!

Emily (@ejenkins220) is an author and editor at She is passionate about ministry + sharing in her brokenness. Emily currently attends Samford University. She lives in Alabama.


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