Do you ever feel tired? Do you ever feel like it may just be easier to throw in the towel and live for your kingdom rather than the Father’s? And for a moment I resent the hard relationships I’m in. I resent the relationships where it feels like I’m getting no where. I want to throw in the towel on some of those relationships where it feels like I’ve invited them to check out the gospel day after day but yet nothing is changing. I take my eyes off of the Father and look at my own self-serving kingdom. I’ll begin to question if its even worth it to put in time and resources to try to share the gospel with people who some days seem like they couldn’t care less. But wow… it is so NOT about me! And thank God it is not about me because it is about something so much more beautiful than I could ever design.
It’s the gospel. It’s the living word of God that penetrates the hearts of stone that we all have and turning them into hearts of flesh. It’s the compassion of Jesus causing a revolution the world had never expected. It’s the power of love on a cross that would forever bridge the separation between rebellious men and our gracious God.
1 Peter 1:12 “It was revealed to them that they were not serving themselves but you, when they spoke of the things that have now been told you by those who have preached the gospel to you by the Holy Spirit sent from heaven. Even angels long to look into these things.”
Even angels long to look into these things!! And yet we have the privilege to not only live in the gospel every day but we also get to preach the gospel to others and see its power in their lives! We are Christ’s ambassadors by his blood and sacrifice- we are on mission with him and for him. It isn’t about us- it’s about Jesus. It’s about who he is and what he did for us. So isn’t it worth it? Isn’t it far, far greater to be a part of preaching the redeeming message of the gospel than it is to use our time and resources they way we think would bring us momentary pleasure?
So often I forget the magnitude of awesomeness within the gospel and the incredible power it carries. I get so caught up in my own kingdom that I forget to keep my eyes on the kingdom that God is building- the kingdom that is immeasurably more than all I could ask or imagine. And even so, the Lord allows me to share this gospel with others. Not only that but he calls us to share it with others. And in sharing the gospel, we find the immense joy of the gospel. Its a cycle of affection that drives us to want to share the gospel with anyone who will listen. I am so thankful that we serve a God who not only humbled himself on the cross to save our souls, but also is willing to humbly remind me of the power and beauty of the gospel in my own self-serving tendencies.
Keep fighting the good fight- and remember the gospel.